Been praying to Jesus every day at 2pm and 8pm for the past couple months. Not a Christian, really. But trying it out.
At minimum, what is pretty cool & horrible is everything bad I've ever done plays in my head a lot. Like I have to recognize what is bad about it before it goes away.
What is odd is I'm not exactly sure what form of Christianity I like. Never read The Bible. Think I'm sort of Catholic, but don't get the saints stuff.
Thanks you guys for helping me use you to work this out.
I felt exactly the way you are feeling now when I was seeking Him.
The Lord is the High Priest, dearest.
Take all those things that are coming before you, all those things you have done wrong, take them to the Lord, ask Him to forgive you for them.
I promise you that He will remove them as far as the east from the west.
He did that for me at age 15, almost 40 years ago.
We are not drawn to Christ unless He calls us. He is calling you.
Be blessed.
He called me when I was 65.
Think about that. At 65 I've accepted being a child of God.
I punished myself so long.
We praise G-d.